May Be

Today i had an illusion.An illusion of enlightenment. An illusion of intelligence.Though i know it may last for a moment or few minutes or few hours or even a lifetime. Life is on hold for me today. The world is moving but i am not i am staring at my past and at my future ,swaying back and fro. I am kinda blank kinda out of space.When i look back i think what i lost, what i gained or did nothing happen. Did i ignored too many things or did i gave few things too much attention. people were the same may be it was me who created a mirage.a mirage on which i made castles and carved my fragile dreams on its walls. What is my illusion?

1. GOD :- For me he is one with thousands of form. He has half the number of eyes that see him and believe in him.( it includes the eyes that don't even work). Either he is in me or i am in him. He made my destiny and gave me a free will to choose my path that will in turn lead me to my fate someday someway.No matter how you resist , the more you will the more you hurt yourself. this is what i have learned overtime, may be too early , may be too late or may be i still have to learn.

2. Life :- Its now a journey for me , a journey which now seems so long. Good, bad, worse , worst, better and with an endless hope to make it best.The journey in which i want to carry my world. Doing the things which i am supposed to. The things i am made for, journey which ammuses me everytime when i get bored and teaches me a lesson every day. Learning from a few who pass me by that i have to be my own self. Telling me what i have what i don't , what i should be and what i will never be. They are not always right and i am not always wrong.

May be i am writing this because i think too much or may be i am writing to give myslef an assurance that i am true to  my own self again. No pretending , no hypocricies just a few words from Manque who stood as a layman in crowd and wishes to leave his mark somewhere in this world which maybe cherished by few though for a moment

Adios!