Random shiz

well i never thought i will be writing again.
i hate changes. thats how i have always been. and these days i am goin through it excessively. i am not what i was i have changed completely. i miss being my former self but life goes on so am i . i really don't know who i am ,what i want, what am i supposed to do , how am i supposed to react.i don't talk my relatives (close ones) my dearest friends the people who are part of my identity . i really have couple of good friends and they do care for me , a family who thinks the world for me . I agree that i have a certain loneliness but being true this void is much more than a mere relationship.Piffany, this my time for it says Nicole . Whatever am i going through it is creating a fear that eats me up everyday that i may not ever be same again.

i know whatever i said won't make sense to any of you who will be reading this but thats the way i talk these days which i don't do much. i rhyme inside my head every time but u have stopped jotting it down sometimes i come across a few beautiful line but then i am like for what . Money , fame , sucess meant a lot to me but i want peace of mind. i believe in god and i believe that he loves me and he gives me everything i need but he has not given me the thing i want.

i hope my extrovertical faze is over

please do tell me if my thoughts make any sense to you

cheers!