bizarre Ideology

I get this weird enlightenment sort of thing when i ever i am under influence of someone's creativity. Sometimes its like HAllELUJAH! and at others its BULLSHIT. I was watching " SIX FEET UNDER" and Goddamn i just cant stop myself unless i get to the core of the things fucking with my brain.I feel like i am an emotional parasite who has this amplifier which enhances the shit i perceive. I feel like i carry a totally Psychotic , confused, never sure, over-thoughtful(mostly loud) , scared freak who on outside is calm actually numb. I try to grab hold on things like u know ever tried stopping a celling fan with your hand sometimes you are able to do it sometimes you even do it but the moment u loose the hold it moves in direction it is supposed to and i am all like WHAT THE FUCK.

Sometimes i Forget what actually matters what totally doesn't. I try to be good but guys like everyone else i just get pissed off at times and i feel like shoveling shit up there ass telling em that i dont take shit from noone cause i have heaps of my own so why dont you stuff it up ur ass. But that is just for a while thats the inside. You feel like doing it but you don't. I believe in KARMA , i believe in GoD or may be KARMA is my GOD, bt what i want to express is it gives us a choice. One moment you may feel like doing it bt other moment we might regret .

We do have all the positive emotions of love, compassion ,loyalty,....and all the fucked up emotions like hatred ( which is rarest) ,being promiscuous , whinging , and all the Son of bitches emotions which lie somewhere in between which always screw up things and leave no fuking chance in hell to make u a layman and i bet noone wants to be one. And apart of them lies SURITY ( This is the motherfucker ) are u sure about anything Noway. Well i am never. I reach to 90% bt never 100% why coz thats what is something beyond our control so stop fucking with it. I try to do it most of the times and all i get is some FUCKED up shit up my head and that is oh not so great.
so whats my job hmmm I was appointed to think of the shit that was never thought before. i realised this now. The world is screwed up because everything begins with a fuck and the product is usually good unless our sanity goes for a booty call and fucks up again which seriously ends up being WHAT THE FUCK!
so what i do is prevent my sanity fro bein scrwed twice and enjoy insanity of my already once scrwed head and i LOVE it

So....so .so

"MEH!"iology rules i am not sure ....WHAT THE FUCK!

OVER n OUT

Emotional Parasite