a Simple Pendulum

Its been ages since i let my shit go public. its been ages since i let the traces of either the angel or the devil inside get public. All the while when i was writing stuff about whatever affected my life and people around me thought that was the only face i had. Its been said that nothing in life is permanent. The whole universe changes every second. But for the past few months, i made an observation that stereotypes don't change. i feel people just take me as pessimist who whinges about every damn thing. That really pisses me off as i feel like i never had real friends.In past few years whom i thought were my real friends but i guess they were nothing more than a punching bag, or they were just trying to satisfy the I am a pendulum, i have two extremes and i keep moving to and fro. And like every other pendulum most of my life is spent between the extremes. I sit and stare on the events happening around the ones i didn't had control over.

Finding a perfect answer to every question i have now seems like finding a corner to a perfect sphere.It doesn't exist or its every where.Sometimes i feel like why do i give people so much control over me. Like they tell me what i am thinking or feeling or whatever i do is not right. Two words....

Fuck You.

And now i should stop what u might think as cribbing but which i take as sharing cause again i am on a run to find the corner to this perfect sphere and like a pendulum of thoughts hanging inside my head is again in motion. And welcome to my new alter ego.....

Emotional Parasite